11.3.2000
Good day doctor
I am happy to remind you, that we on 8. 3. had an appointment. That date was the day before yesterday! Unfortunately, I was unable to keep this appointment. Though you always say, that you take me on my life path, how it unrolls in front of me, support, last time you criticized me. Sharp! That I still don't have a job and no clear career prospects or concrete ideas, how I will earn my life in the future. That was the point of criticism! So you told me, if not directly, but definitely through the FLOWER, that it's better, when i have the time, that I spend with it, To describe my moods to you in curvy letters, invest in applications.
“Otherwise we will lose our time here!”, they said. And I realized, how you scattered one, almost dispossessed look at your fat, threw waterproof wristwatch. OTHERWISE WE WILL LOSE OUR TIME HERE. DOCTOR! First time: WHERE do we lose our time?! And secondly: You know exactly, that I have no time to waste, but only life! So I ask you politely, not from “We” to speak, when you speak of yourself, which I suspect hard, if you say: “… Otherwise we will lose our time!” And with one so distracted, almost fearful gaze to look at your sealed underwater watch, that one might think, All your sovereignty and professionalism, with which you provoke me, tickle out, upset, make aggressive, in the good motherly attempt, To let myself down on the rope through therapy …. against money, suddenly got lost.
doctor, What do you have to lose?
(2000, Edges-Collection)