I want to understand one, which is not easy to understand.
There is not much to understand about her; It's so simple and simple!
Do you understand me? Ask her. Or: You know, as I mean ’? Do you love me Still?
That too! Plus minus those are the questions, that kept them busy, tease,
over decades.
Now I have it the other day (again) not understood.
What you mean, you understand that and what you are talking about, it is clear to you.
I said. But not for others. I, for example, often have trouble understanding you.
Do you understand that?
I am almost certain, by the way, that I looked at them directly,
while I was saying this. But she looked, I think, away most of the time.
No. I do not understand that! Called her,, that I want to understand out loud. Understand me
you do! Who wants to understand me, he doesn’t need to understand anything!
That you have to misunderstand me ...
But, You just do not understand me! You do not love me!
At this point she looked at me briefly. However, I am not entirely sure about it.
Because maybe I lowered my eyes too.
But, I do. I love you. But that you doubt it, barely, that I ... you
once do not understand, I just can't understand this! It is a hassle.
How long should this go on??
I see! I understand…!
Mighty dams collapsed over her now. (which I do not understand either.)
You want to leave me! So it is! Called her. And her heart, that differs from his
Foundation had loosened, knocked her with short, hard beaks against the ears, the
bubbled simultaneously, from the pressure of drowning: tocktock. Dry stock!
And, that's how it was for her. Drown and die soon.
Sag, do you love me Still?
And. I have told you so many times before. I said. Und dann schwiegen wir eine
quite a while. Honestly, I believe, each of us just stared straight ahead
respectively in the environment, because besides us there were still those too.
Then a little came from her, plucked: Chick-ok!
Ok. She started. And she bravely looked at me directly. I mean, you know,
Just because you don't look at me all the time, while you talk to me, so,
as if you were very cold inside! As if you didn't want to understand me at all, at this moment!
You could even think so, you hate me, werweiss! And one thing you have to understand:
namely, that I really understand one thing: Someone loves me, then feel, I the!
I don't like you, so I can see it in one fell swoop!
There is nothing to understand! Every baby feels that, every blind person can see it!
Do you understand? I mean, you understood me and you know, as i mean it?
And so it continues. ask: that gnaw at you, unconditionally for endless decades
tease. So simple and easy to knit:
Babies stay! And blind!
To understand: Was? Nothing.
(17.8.18)
God …..
this is sad ….