"They mean, there will never be a strange man, who is able, to give me this security and devotion, within a moment, in which I need it, to give myself to him?!“I was really very in that moment, very battered. I said dejected: "I admit, that I haven't been able to do so yet, to become the man, that you just described; although I have long since decided to do so, that I have the masculine characteristics, who impress me so much, must embody themselves. I want the one I desire, unreachable, strangers, be unscrupulous cold-blooded and rational man!! And, I want that!! But unfortunately I still want the same thing: Tamer die, to be the man's child and problem child! I want to be a baby in a man's arms, not a grown man, Do you understand! Stupid, i have to say it, like this! But what's the point of this talk?! For me there is only ever a tiny moment, a small, small time window, where I can physically touch something, there can be contact with a man, everything and nothing decides for me! It could be over in the next moment, and I have to flee because of the symptoms!Rambo Flottmann objected: "And, You have to flee, but not because of your symptoms. Its symptoms are just mental catharsis, with which you free yourself from the guilt of your dissolute life.