You said it: twenty-five years ago:
I see you well married.
I just came from the perfumery, where i flacons
sold with heavenly scents.
Besides, I've already started, your severance pay for life ————————– overcooked.
Your lifetime severance pay:
please forgive, that at that time I saw the dead Thomas Bernhard ————– loved.
Wanted to give him the gift every morning, the
man must and may make himself, in the shower in next to no time————————-
in my thoughts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I was such a stupid one, twisted chick,
as we all knew. But nobody said it:
except maybe you, most likely:
Well married, what was called, how:
with no hop! With a man, of endurance, control!—- one, who can think!
To me————– should reason me continue more often in the ——————————Stich———————
to let.
Good, and! The most rational star in the sky shines the longest!
Who got me out of every jam I ran into unconcerned, as in the —– handle of the scissors —–
because, he: elitist, I was, me the incidental of existence, the malware ignored?!!!!
Falling for fake leases, sign false certificates,
ripped off by crooks, mostly for money; me still in cynic
falling in love;(Fuck for Peace: My ex, haha) and,and
God dammit: that was it, the only, what i managed:
because the Magnum 357 never got to me.
“stick to god”. Did you then say, recently in June, gotten so skinny in your cortex jacket. And me
silently with me: Damn it! Does he start now?, to get sentimental after so many years!?
I could be so shallow in a man, the formerly out —————————– muscles existed ————–out———–
mental dynamics ——————————- like this—–not endure.
Good, that doesn't exist, you don't have to know,
—- congruence, Logic, pragmatic solutions, after so many personal defeats,
claim too high, Power too low———–
—- Soul: renegade
stuck in two of my emotional states:
in my mad rage, my most fragile, blaba ——-dedication.
(17.9.22)
(Dinan, French 2001, can I become a sort of man as a real woman? That was the question. Not if you adore men physically, damn no. Butler, understand my problem?!)