"The love clochard, you could have written, is a human, who loses everything, his roof, his sanity, his warm bed. Like Nizon's human, who becomes a beggar in Paris, it eventually dissolves and disappears.”
35_the nevermore dialogues
First, in a first step, over a long process, you lose hope, that there is a therapy for your illness in the near future. This hopelessness turns into fact, also a process, that your life, so ...
Memory_Lisa
Lisa was the prettiest in the village, but she lived in the most dilapidated house on the railway embankment. Lisa was omnipresent: her swaying form, she already had breasts, her blue ones, eyes wreathed with lashes, ihre Stupsnase und die schulterlangen dunkelblonden Lo ...
3004_Diary_ writing
I want to let go and surrender to exhaustion, but I can not. I'm always looking for a new path, that I could follow in a series of thoughts. I just want to work, I can only endure the pain when I'm still working, from ...
The Steinchen_Eclätchen
Ich kam als Steinchen an den Schuh und verschwand im Senkloch. A child reconstructed my way. And take that to heart. Ein Erwachsener ging schnell vorbei Eigentor! he laughed. I came into the shoe as a leg, d ...
34_Amour Box
And then again, became of something, that was precious and sacred to me, a collateral damage. Raven, I need swings, at the same time, black wings.
Roommate_ Parasol
You are still standing as a one-legged grace on your round plastic foot. Like a thirsty plant, I pour water, in the round opening. It is, so you don't fall, when it shakes and lifts you up, as if someone shook your wrong one ...
33 very unsexy, Raven
At the moment I have to keep showing up again, 'Cause I can't bear to be choked down into invisibility anymore. It hangs over me like a sword of Damocles, Raven. That the clearer it gets, that I'm going away, I, on the other hand, am in despair ...
3004_Amour Box (a later addendum) I feel betrayed by life, over which I no longer have any influence or power
I still have flashbacks, emerging so close from within me, so close to me I see his smile again below me, see our first meeting in my shabby little nursery, Scenes from the first year and the second are there ...
33 shitty Amourbox
Raven! What remains of passion but pain? Passion is ultimately unwanted. Shallow poppers sing about it in songs. But nobody wants to live. Don't you think so?? Am I wrong?, Raven? Of, that you can fly, will e ...