The higher the energy level increases, the lower and worse the quality of nervous perception becomes- of sensitivity?
Materialistic medicine would probably call this negative neurasthenic logic, but for me there is nothing medical or esoteric about it at all.
Pure physical force is equated with matter, a quantitatively filled space.
But if a body cannot fill this space materially due to weakness, it refines and condenses the sensitive perception. It can be then, that a body feels vibrations more strongly than physical touch. This in the smallest of spaces.
I would love to know, how I would have lived with a body, the all physical, mitochondrial power would have been available. I would have just gone crazy and crazy after a short time?
What does a healthy person do with all their quantitative power?? He has to play sports …. vomit at work.
I can't know and I can't imagine it, because I was never able to live in a purely physical weight room.
It amazes me, how quickly my nervous sensitivity dulls, as soon as I gain even one more level of barking and am no longer completely weak and bedridden.
This dullness may also be caused by adrenergic overactivity, with which my body always tries, to compensate for the lack of mitochondrial strength. It's callousness at a high level.
Still, I think, that it should be possible physically at a bark level of 100 to function (Bellgrad 0: unable to turn in bed) and therefore to be physically in possession of the entire life force, and still develop sensitivity, a subtle vibrancy.
I think, maybe it would even be possible, to own both: the quantity of purely material force, the space as well as the energetic compression, to penetrate this space, just with a different form of energy. But I am not sure, whether that would work.
The stronger the body becomes, the less it is condensed into this, selective deep structure of nervous sensation, because as a widely functioning machine it has other tasks and no longer needs a refined sensorium, to feel free.
I didn't write well enough today, I just didn't achieve the vibrancy in the language, because I have seen an increase in activity over the last ten days. Possibly, who knows, it's because of interval oxygen training, which I've been doing since February and which is supposed to give the cells a bit of a boost.
It's definitely not my psyche, because my life is as colorless and rotten as a piece of driftwood.
But my entire system has obviously needed subtlety for years, due to physical weakness, to be able to write well and fill in the spaces between the language. The more I can move, the more stimuli from the “gross material”, real world I get to metabolize, The less subtle and profound my feeling becomes, Perceive, Writing and in ecstasy. (lol)
If I were functioning again, healthy person; I would have to sell myself completely. Sell completely.