I, the journalist for the publishing house der “marginal shipping”:
MJS, what you already im “Belief” hinted at trying, did you fully implement it in the testimony?:
You split a protagonist into two characters. MJS:
Who is Jeanne?
And who is Dolly?
MJS: In simple words: Jeanne is the mental one, mental part, Dolly the physically sensual part of the organism.
I, the journalist for the publishing house der “marginal shipping”:
Can you elaborate on that??
MJS: Jeanne Storm is: mentale Stärke, Reflection, physical illness, Depression, but also gentleness, she is the mature me, always supposed to be a bit more mature than the inventor of the protagonist herself. Dolly is: the power of intuition, sensuality, childishness, anger and innocence, it is the borderline constant, Pleasure-pain dialectic, Dependence and the youthful ego or she is also over forty in terms of age (so the same age as Jeanne, they are the same organism), but she can't grow up.
I:
Why did you split the protagonist, if you say, that they come from the same organism?
MJS: I divided them up, to be less lonely as a writer. Because I love dialogue. Mainly because of that.
Maybe then, because I've felt it for a long time, also in belief, that I don't really fit the extremes of the protagonist into one person….
I: Extreme?
MJS: The characteristics of the protagonist diverge. On the one hand she is highly vulnerable and somehow childish on the other hand cruel and terribly autonomous.
I: not all people are basically like that?
MJS: I do not think so. I think, most people develop traits, that are closer together and more or less in harmony with each other. One then perceives these people as intact personalities….
I: seems oversimplified to me.
What is the testimony about?
MJS: It's about goodbyes, as so often. And because it was so often about farewell, about letting go, also in belief, is it about that, him, the farewell, to veil and postpone in many variations …. whenever I write, I'm putting something off …. because I create something new in writing. And new lives ….. in contrast to the old …. that dies …
… Or just can't die …..
I: What is Jeanne Sturmchen's official confession??
MJS: Jeanne Sturmchen has no witnesses for her confession. And she knows that too, that there is no testimony. Jeanne Stürmchen tells her own story. In this phase of her life there are almost no people left in Jeanne's life, but also no fights with doctors/institutions/inclusions etc. It seems to Jeanne Sturmchen, as if she were paddling along on a raft. Your counterparts are no longer human, but the images of nature, a few yards from her window. In order not to go insane with their inwardness and the lack of interactions, Jeanne gets in touch with the richness of nuances of the adjoining piece of nature.
I: Why should Jeanne lose her mind?
MJS: because she since 26 has been physically ill for years and has mostly been in bed for the last six years. Who has been eliminated from society for so long, falls into complete isolation. It comes to shattering. I didn't explicitly write about the illness that often anymore, but of course she is the ground, where it all happens: The Playing-Dead-Syndrom.
I: What's the matter with Dolly? Why is she crying all the time?
MJS: She cries all the time, because she feels in this immediate sphere, before sensations can seep away and connect with the mind. she cries, because she has a great ability to love. But not to the universe, the family, the animals, the people. Only for the man. And she lost that.
I: Is there some kind of salvation for Dolly in the second part?
MJS: I dont know. I do not think so. Dolly loses touch with reality and starts doing stupid things.
I: You say: Dolly and Jeanne are part of an organism? That sounds like it, as if the organism were superior to the human being. Isn't that more like it?, that we, me and you, own an organism, but also a personality, a consciousness and spiritual being, that exists independently of this organism?
MJS: I dont know. I don't think so. For me, the organism is the best term for body and soul and mind/cognition. For me it's the only coherent term. Body as such is technical, Psyche as such is a mere construct. We can understand organism as this wholeness with its interactions: physical signals-responses-interpretations. Everything, what i experienced, imprinted itself in my organism, wrote itself into my cellular memory. Every trauma has its traces in my organism. I am: my body feeling. If you are due to a serious, have a bad body feeling after a long-standing illness, with that I mean: experience no well-being, always suffer from physical symptoms, then this state makes your personality. But actually, this can already happen at birth, when you are cold etc.
I: I do not know, I imagine my consciousness outside of my body….
MJS: No. I imagine it trapped, inside my body. I do not know anything, that would be outside of me,
as long as the body presents me with such problems. He is closed to the secret of the last ….
back to testimony please.
I: Isn't testimony just another, again last chapter of the statement of faith?
MJS: The idea, that it's something new, i like it better. The first three chapters of the dogma are about ten years old. That bothers me about the belief.
I: in which publisher will you publish testimony?
MJS: in the Loser publishing house that I founded.
I: thank you for the conversation.
MJS: I'm fix and fe. Having a shitty cough fit now, Movid-Bronchitis.