Posts in category: 3004_Diary

There is a special dialectic in my life: Although I arranged the circumstances that way, that next to nothing happens in it, this is still too intense for me. What do I conclude from this? That I have my level (currently Bellscore again ...

What can I say? Myalgic encephalomyelitis can be an organic pattern, That goes beyond me, tide, to which I am subject and which will eventually make me disappear into themselves. Es gibt zwischen zwei und fünf Tage pro Mon ...

'The heart has its reasons, which the mind does not know. ' One of my favorite quotes since I can read and write. Ever since I accuse myself and feel back, one: nicer and deeper, to feel clearer. But now I have a leap in the subject(ive ...

So I am locked in my body. But at the same time excluded from me as a body. That's what makes it special. The same can be applied to my relationship with the outside world: Ich bin als Mensch in dieser Aussenwelt e ...

Mjs oduesP. Thinking out loud. Pause, think about it, what it is: that I can do nothing and have no talent for anything and rattled through all the tests, and because I'm trying, to somehow work through me ...

You see, that a world becomes a heap of ruins, but there are no guilty parties, and no logical explanation either. How will I allow myself to be devastated .... Lately, and in principle, I have not been able to live anymore, without this rare And ...

I don't see any way out. During the day I can no longer move because of weakness and nausea. My relatives "frolics" me, because they are helpless themselves, accuse me, to reject them. My doctor sees me in psycho rehab, hab ihm 3mal den Merkzet ...