If literature is also a kind of sporting performance, then i have winter 20/21 reached my climax. Since then I have actually not been able to develop any more, but regress and grow linguistically, cognitive, mentally and emotionally back. Dass ...
3004_Diary_ to “Belief” __and to fade the tracks
I had twenty years, this novel (Belief) to write. I think: yet: twenty years is enough, for whatever. A human, given twenty years, he can do something! I do not want to say, dass der Br ...
3004_to “quarantine”, about Catherine from Zolas “Germinal” as well as the “Zauberberg” and the “book” From God
I need that certain something, to be able to write. I need it: to get into an exalted mood, an excitement! But I am so tired from the constant physical convulsions. High blood pressure when straightening the body. Auspressen der G ...
3004_Diary_I am almost only asleep
Now I am jealous of myself, when I was just getting better and before I realized, that these days "canceled" and something new has started: I almost only sleep now. To see, as my physical resistances dwindle, ängstigt ...
3004_Fash-ion_Sheep
The sheep are ringing and ringing half the night four meters from my bed over the road in the meadow. I like that very much, these newcomers! Definitely make Ghost City a few degrees warmer. Firm and rough, leicht fett fühlt sich s ...
3004_6AM___Fash-ion
Currently I'm still wearing the light gray jeans. In addition the gray-brown sweater from yesterday (who now has two ladder stitches from Hopfi). I wear small ones on my ears, red gold, fine causual hoop earrings. I don't wear socks. Auf den Lippen trag ...
3004_To write prose_quarantine (prov. title)
So it is like that, that I want to write out of the text, quasi expanding from the inside to the outside. Paint a flower, which erodes. Don't write linearly and don't think, that I can only think linearly, when I think consciously. Nevertheless: von Inne ...
3004_about prose writing
Once you start to look at the formal framework when writing, it is as good as no longer possible, to get into a writing flow in the first place. It starts with that, that you already revise every paragraph after two sentences, ums ...
3004_Diary___ I'm looking for the space in between
The dynamic, in which one drifts forward, has something magnetic about it. In between, someone is busy solving acute problems. I admit, that I solve one acute problem after the next, but never- and maybe because of that- niemals mein chronisches ...
3004__Diary_ to the retreat
Then when I'm dead, in this brief moment the greatest possible and most defenseless intimacy, I don't want to have a single eye on myself and never be seen by any look. Another, further condition, the ...