The idea, that I've been dealing with for several years, based on just a feeling, but a feeling, that gives me no rest: that I can't start with the old chapters, but must insert them into the new chapters. Why? Weil me ...
To my pleasure-oriented infidelities away from the main work_prose_believe_sentence_testimony
From now on only work on the long prose. No more evasions and escapes into spontaneous eclats. Working soberly on structure and content, but most of all content. ultimate goal: I don't want to do anything offensive, ich will mich nicht im Testimony produ ...
3004_Diary I'm not born yet I
I lie close to the words, to be in one place. Nor do I push back the words with every picture of me, neither are my words nor I born, it's still trash, arrogance or coercion, öffentlich in dieser Weise von einem Ich z ...
Traits of MJS
One of the most confusing things for me is, that I shut people up, if my speeches to them are meant as an invitation to counter-speech and assent. I expect or wish, that XY is talking to me, aber ich sorge vorher dafür mit ...
3004_Easter_Diary!
Went to the city quickly today (medicine inside), pursued the idea of a sheltered from the wind, light parkas. Didn't find anything in four shops and then was forced to turn around. At the Rossfeld bus station, a small woman got out in front of me, sie trug einen hellb ...
Philosophy_on Quotations
Socrates, antiquity: man through philosophy (Understanding) do better. Erasmus of Rotterdam, Renaissance humanism: sich als Kunstwerk gestalten Sartre, existentialism, 1946: man only exists in that mass, in which he succeeds ...
3004_The last days of Summer with(out) Myalgic Encephalomyelitis
Every day, retrospectively, I will pick it up and bring it before my eyes once more, everything I've experienced. Sometime towards the end of August, Thanatos opened up his black concrete roof, that is as long as it is thick, und in das er mit seinem grandiosen Atem klei ...
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Look, Raven. There must be life. Or there must be death. But we, poeple with Myalgi E./Playing-Dead-Syndrom, we are always between life and death. The days I am alive I want to make love, the days I have to go back to Hades and perceive myself (deadly) il ...