Posts in category: 3004_Diary

Filled with the blankest fright. Raven.

I am a 47 year old woman and for many years I received negative comments about my not tender, not fluffy, footballer- calves. The last remark, my calves are sandpaper, is very young, but it crossed my mind, dass man ...

Was lying on the school bench and looked at the starry sky. Then I suddenly thought of it, that my corps pics (utopia of the body, Based on Foucault's text, which I want to post, Try mixing two tracks) appear on the web, wo jeder ...

Raven. I seldom experienced such a profound paralysis. It is not my body but my soul who seems to go through an entropic growth. Will this soul tear up my thin thin body??? Today I was able to walk akmost an hour, I saw so many vibrant leaves tremblin ...

(my) Eros burns again. Ever since I've been stuck in this dialectic: Thanatos-Eros, is all fire. I know, that Eros had the power, to save me. But if I send out my arrow, which happens very rarely, aber nun wieder einmal passie ...

Two years at Ghost City: there is no life, no vibrant life, here.... it's at least after sunset a dead place.....and it pains me and astonishs me living again in such frost.... Raven, I was thinking people with handicap and physical problems are maybe ...

always, if i try, to live, I realize, that that doesn't work, that the circumstances are so, that life (verb) leads to mental despair within a short space of time, not only, because I don't meet the physical requirements, zu relaxen od Spas ...

Cannot maintain the level. Raven. Give me wings.

  The scream of me as a human has probably become so loud, that it irreversibly damaged my literary texts, that the products can no longer stand on their own, weil ich mich aus Not immerzu in den Vordergrund dräng ...

All acquaintances, that I still have, hurt me, Raven. They tug at me, without, that i could say, Why. It is, because they confirm, that I lived and spent many years in her presence, fought and sought a companionship. Aber j ...