Every minute, in which I don't write, I suffer mental anguish. It must be an art now, to forget my circumstances, at least for minutes! people tell me: just keep writing! Or: keep writing! Als wäre ic ...
41 nevermore
Whole life was like a conspiracy wants me absolutley driving to suicide, especially the last six years and mostly that last two, Raven. I am supposed to see my failure genetically. In the meanwhile I can hardly see my family because of that. I ne ...
39 nevermore Psy
always, when i want to sleep, everything comes to me, Raven. Everything. You know, that a so-called psychiatrist refused, to take the painful and sinful life confession from me with the justification, that it's not worth it, Austherapierten zu ...
3004_about writing_belief and testimony
I'm concerned with the impression, that my two novels (Statement of belief 10 years written on it, Testimony 2 Monate), don't radiate an appropriate age. It is strange, but it feels like it, as if the tone of my writing was young, als könnte er ni ...
Dizzying facts from the outside
The world is giving up now 5 from 7 continents wars. So there is 7 Continent: 1. Afrika ein Pulverfass, military conflicts in almost all states, afrikanische Staaten mit mehr als 10'000 Tote ...
35_the nevermore dialogues
First, in a first step, over a long process, you lose hope, that there is a therapy for your illness in the near future. This hopelessness turns into fact, also a process, that your life, so, how ...
3004_Diary_ writing
I want to let go and surrender to exhaustion, but I can not. I'm always looking for a new path, that I could follow in a series of thoughts. I just want to work, I can only endure the pain when I'm still working, die aus ...