Beaurivage, Thun, 1996 8.12.1996 Write on these trips. The days spent in the lightless. Drive out into the nights; the lights have already closed. So I drive from the lightless day into the closed rooms of the night. Und w ...
a faulty course, Beginning, 2019
Shortly before my thirty-ninth birthday, I was overcome by such a paradoxical, unfounded fear, that I wish, to go crazy. I didn't mean to be moronic, But if I was mad enough, I might be able to, ...
2.30 AM (before noon)
A resinous squeak as always at this time. The first roller shutter goes up. shift work, maybe. At the same time someone opens the hot water tap upstairs, a night bath for day trippers, lucky two. Als Kinder haben wir uns in der Wanne als S ...
Diary: Desires are desired
As long as I wasn't serious about writing, I thought writing was a great thing. The more seriously I was writing, and therefore the better I wanted to get at it (for me and by my standards), the more uncomfortable it has become for me, this ...
Send me nudity
Momo is writing to me. My chat is full of little messages from Momo. 26 year old and in the nursing home, Parents who don't believe him. Momo doesn't just chat with me. He chats with everyone. Collects the most beautiful young women on the Net. Momo würde all d ...
It is absurd course, Beginning, 2014
Curriculum Absurdum Mal wieder beschleicht mich das Gefühl, as if my life hadn't started yet! For sure, this feeling will go away, if only I can finally finish my curriculum absurdum. But I also have to say, dass ich wegen de ...
Diary, 9.10.20, my 3 Battles, Summary
I see exactly 3 battles, that I could win or lose: Krankheit resp physische Homöostase berufliche resp. künstlerische Anerkennung LoveAndere Battles sehe ich augenblicklich nicht und habe keine Augen dafür, e.g.. for so many Life-S ...
Diary and #pwME, 9.10.20
You tell me, dear friend and ME sufferer, that you're worried, because I, instead of paying attention to my physical limits, go for a walk and that "Search far", so, better fight / deal with psychological distress. It would be stupid, when I'm there ...
Memory box, Diary
August-Bebel-Strasse, Leipzig, 1998 I just remember, like me 1998 Arrived in August-Bebel-Strasse in Leipzig in mid-October, and it was 23 Grad und dann 2 Months later the snow froze on the street, über Wochen hatten sich klei ...
ME-Diary (Lovesick box)
"It is always the same." You said this, in bitterness, when you were gone. "It is always the same." And, the external circumstances of severe myalgic E. correspond exactly to this perception, even a normal family doctor refused my care with d ...