Whole life was like a conspiracy wants me absolutley driving to suicide, especially the last six years and mostly that last two, Raven.
I am supposed to see my failure genetically.
In the meanwhile I can hardly see my family because of that.
I never want to go to my hometown nomore.
It would be to painful with all failures having their origin locally there.
It pains me for my parents but I cannot change. The door has been closed and I am blocked.
My failure is a burden and I must concentrate on death to endure it any day longer.
Wings, Raven, wings!