I felt, like time reeled in a wheel. And slowly slag and pitch got caught in it. And now I feel, how time stands still again. A millstone, who cranks my breaths and crushes them in the sluggish movement. Jeder Atemzug zer ...
Diary about being tied up
The summer adrenaline surges are over. The problem is not physical torture, the breakup of the solar plexus, Swallower, Muscles, Tendons and ligaments of the neck and shoulders and arms, das gleichzeitige Zermörteln und Ve ...
3004_Diary_ for writing
Unfortunately only for writing again: Every day I save another day and night for writing, solange, until my cognition and mental strength are recovered, that I can do it again ( Write) at my belief / conclusion. I k ...
Diary_3004_fb_Eintrag, about family ties
Suddenly the old parents' life becomes porous and fragile. And one wishes, that the sun is always shining, for her, when one could not shine even for her. And, I did not do this for my producers; seem. ...
Diary_3004_ about my beliefs and writing
If literature is also a kind of sporting performance, then i have winter 20/21 reached my climax. Since then I have actually not been able to develop any more, but regress and grow linguistically, cognitive, mentally and emotionally back. Dass ...
Diary_3004_Expansion of the combat zone; 2
In his first volume of poetry (in search of happiness) it says succinctly in a poem by Houellbecq: "Why can we never, never be loved?" And, I believe, that's the whole poem. But nothing more needs to be said. D ...
3004_Diary_ to “Belief” __and to fade the tracks
I had twenty years, this novel (Belief) to write. I think: yet: twenty years is enough, for whatever. A human, given twenty years, he can do something! I do not want to say, dass der Br ...
3004_to “quarantine”, about Catherine from Zolas “Germinal” as well as the “Zauberberg” and the “book” From God
I need that certain something, to be able to write. I need it: to get into an exalted mood, an excitement! But I am so tired from the constant physical convulsions. High blood pressure when straightening the body. Auspressen der G ...
3004_Diary_I am almost only asleep
Now I am jealous of myself, when I was just getting better and before I realized, that these days "canceled" and something new has started: I almost only sleep now. To see, as my physical resistances dwindle, ängstigt ...
3004_Fash-ion_Sheep
The sheep are ringing and ringing half the night four meters from my bed over the road in the meadow. I like that very much, these newcomers! Definitely make Ghost City a few degrees warmer. Firm and rough, leicht fett fühlt sich s ...