Mid season (from the insatiable) At twenty-six, im November war’s, I felt suddenly, that I didn't love Doc anymore. We stood at the bus stop in the suburbs and waited for the bus, That should bring us back. Autos, Last ...
14.11.2020 #pwME
I don't see any way out. During the day I can no longer move because of weakness and nausea. My relatives "frolics" me, because they are helpless themselves, accuse me, to reject them. My doctor sees me in psycho rehab, hab ihm 3mal den Merkzet ...
Early diaries, 2003, the Jungfraujoch-Guy
7.3.2003 Smaller, rabiater, not too sensitive volcano, this american-guy. It was a spring day with a hair dryer and fibrous clouds. The birds fluttered overhead in droves, while we were skating- it was nice. The wavy one ...
Early diaries, 2002, the meni
9.2.2002 Russian party at Gaby's. So many men, as I see in a year. In the dim light of the roof deck, family. Russian band, sentimental, melancholy. The Russian men dark, auratic. Gabie's attachment: Coach jackets students, lust ...
Early diaries, 2000
10.11.2000 A life dedicated to inner movement must end in self-abandonment or the madhouse. And yet I am a minimalist, just euphorize myself. One sentence, that gets me excited, because he might have touched my nerve ...
Early diaries, 1999, Ryfflihof
18.4.1999 Ryfflihof. I'm here. A human, a saleswoman, no idea. I have a card number, belong to the world again, do a service. I have a face? I have eyes? Nobody saw me. Should I be happy about it? I ...
Retro: With Lillie in the papillorama (from my insatiable, 3, 2003)
The butterflies are like snowstorms. Your home, as tiny as a circus arena, is with tropical plants, artificial water source and red rocks. The temperature is thirty-five degrees Celsius. Die Schmetterling ...
Memory: Gate to the Emmental 2
When I was twenty I hiked on the Egg. Together with Henry, the warmest and most vital person, I've ever met. It was May, but already warm in summer. One of the most beautiful fragrances, that exist, the smell of hay was in the air . ...
Memory: Gate to the Emmental
In October before 30 Years ago I was in the potato field with Clara. The field was on the slope, steeply below the farmhouse, where Clara lived with her parents and four brothers. Claras Bruder Johann trug einen blauen Overall und ging schon mal mit dem Tra ...