My words matter. My creativity is on hold. Something breaks/stops my inner monologue. I feel poetryless, free from association, playfulness and passion. I feel chained to this, wofür ich seit etwa zwei bis drei Jahre ...
3004_We don't live in a country, we live in a language.’ E.M. Cioran
Somewhere on the Stadthalterstrasse there is a small attic apartment with a roof-free aisle and a little view of the sky, as I suspect. Fr. 1080 in the month. Then this absurd cascade starts again: And, but why housing, wenn man nicht leb ...
3004_to the diary and selective perception
The problem with my diaries lies in this, that the selective perception of me has been focused on it for decades, the pain, Problems, defects, shortcomings, etc.. to log. Of course it can be, dass ich ursprünglich dacht ...
71 frigo is fuller
MJS would love to move out of this stable, Wand an Wand, Atem and Atem eyes ...... into a new one, another city, a city kingdom with many meadow-like oases and striking faces.... But, Good, Raven! Welcher Bewerber kann schon als Bewerbu ...
3004_Diary_'Caring for Oneself as a Practice of Freedom’
If I'm not mistaken, I'm developing a little, and I have developed a little within the scope of my possibilities. But these developments do not change my situation in statu degradationis, es ist ein rein innerlicher u intrinsischer Prozes ...
69
let's wake up, middle of the night, from a nightmare, to keep dreaming? Or was the dream just there?, to show us, what the real feels like, wenn es uns wirklich zustösst, in the dream; confusingly close, und bis zur Konfusheit eindringlich .. ...
Something from outside (I rarely read the newspaper)
'Russia's defense spending for the year 2023 amount to around five trillion rubles, according to British military experts (around 78,4 billion francs).'(,the Bund) The number of dead soldiers from both sides will be 18.11.22 myth ca. 200'000 ...
about mine “belief”
I don't want to write a novel, written by an angry woman, I want to write a novel, written by a reflective woman!!!! I point that out, the instinct animal, down.
68
Maybe now, Raven, when my own happiness is gone (sorry watched to much Downtown Abbey!)... ever so long ... do I become a fool to guess happiness in the others? They won't reveal something to me that is so precious, so vulnerable ... of course .....! K ...
67
How stupid do you have to be, not to seek peace with someone, with whom you live wall to wall?! And! But look: the other wants less than that! Also Raven! For many months now I have been the target of this and other indifference! Better this way ...