At Pentecost it was possible for me, to experience the sun. I just didn't want to go back to my room. I felt, that the third day, (that. 3h jeweils) where I walked around on the roof of the house, wrote, me taking turns in the sun, then ...
#pwME_dynamics of insidiously progressive ME_psychic consequences
My ME started 1996 mit POTS, constant muscle pain, Dysautonomia, months of nausea, and complete stress and drug intolerance, and flu symptoms during menstruation. I would 2003 berentet. At the end of middle age, 2014, rings ...
3004_Camus in Fembio_Essenenzen_diese Ambivalenz_mein last entry primarily primitive
Camus has women, which he apparently needed for enjoyment and for his ego, which might even have been his elixir of life, not regarded as equal human friends. Isn't that amazing? I mean, because I imagine, dass die Erkenntn ...
3004_Diary_#pwME_and: valve down
People with a certain social position have their personal weaknesses ---- supported by the social position---- never work up. It's very hard, letting go of dreams, when there is no equivalence. Arbeitne ...
Insomnia-Talk
For me, culture would be this inclusion of experiences, Insights and realities of life beyond the constructed reality. And what would that be? It can't be religion. spirituality, grow on the basis of this constructed reality, k ...
#pwME_closed doors or doors that aren't etc.
Since I finished my novel and I'm finishing a volume of short texts, some horrible things have happened to ME: My one-year internal exit report has lost its validity, because the family doctor threw me out. It is ...
3004_Sonne, my cells are little funnels
Sun, my cells are little funnels, leaning towards you and trembling with dejection and exhaustion. You're not there, slow, migrated more and more since October, ich vermisse jedeneinzelnen deiner Strahlen, die du diesem Ort vorenthielt ...
#pwME_Vacuum-Diary_and_creative crisis
I've been wishing for an inexplicit language for a long time, a language, to deal with the gaping wound. How should one live with this disbelief of others and especially close relatives, really a lifetime? I can confirm, that the p ...
for Chanel_spring 23
I'm in an exhaustion- and crisis of meaning and can not be creative at the moment u.va. do not write. It may be, that I'm done with it. It may be, that something can happen to me, das mich wieder seelisch füllt, and possibly. ist schreiben wieder mö ...
Revision of an untitled novel
I ask, what didn't fit with the title, which overall doesn't fit. You say, it's too pathetic, everything. And, it is not anymore, as at the beginning (Capt 1, 2,3) naughty, ironic, light and sarcastic. The protagonist's voice can no longer sound the same ...