My illness is inconceivable without the female menstrual cycle. As long as I can remember, were the 28 days the circle, within which the energy was building and through the breakdown of hormones, destroyed again at the end of the cycle. Dies ...
Amour-Box_2023_first retrospective
Now- where time goes by, a few years even, I'm getting closer and closer to the end, to thank him or fate, that I was able to learn and experience the truthfulness of this reference. And, truthfulness, weil wir doch so schutzlos wie zwei ...
#Experiencing pwME_Sonne was fantastic_Holidays I unfortunately always want to prove the impossible to myself
At Pentecost it was possible for me, to experience the sun. I just didn't want to go back to my room. I felt, that the third day, (that. 3h jeweils) where I walked around on the roof of the house, wrote, me taking turns in the sun, then ...
#pwME_dynamics of insidiously progressive ME_psychic consequences
My ME started 1996 mit POTS, constant muscle pain, Dysautonomia, months of nausea, and complete stress and drug intolerance, and flu symptoms during menstruation. I would 2003 berentet. At the end of middle age, 2014, rings ...
3004_Camus in Fembio_Essenenzen_diese Ambivalenz_mein last entry primarily primitive
Camus has women, which he apparently needed for enjoyment and for his ego, which might even have been his elixir of life, not regarded as equal human friends. Isn't that amazing? I mean, because I imagine, dass die Erkenntn ...
3004_Diary_#pwME_and: valve down
People with a certain social position have their personal weaknesses ---- supported by the social position---- never work up. It's very hard, letting go of dreams, when there is no equivalence. Arbeitne ...
Insomnia-Talk
For me, culture would be this inclusion of experiences, Insights and realities of life beyond the constructed reality. And what would that be? It can't be religion. spirituality, grow on the basis of this constructed reality, k ...
#pwME_closed doors or doors that aren't etc.
Since I finished my novel and I'm finishing a volume of short texts, some horrible things have happened to ME: My one-year internal exit report has lost its validity, because the family doctor threw me out. It is ...
3004_Sonne, my cells are little funnels
Sun, you may not shine on this place anymore. My cells are little funnels, leaning towards you and trembling with dejection and exhaustion. You're not there, slow, migrated more and more since October, ich vermisse jeden einzelnen dei ...
#pwME_Vacuum-Diary_and_creative crisis
I've been wishing for an inexplicit language for a long time, a language, to deal with the gaping wound. How should one live with this disbelief of others and especially close relatives, really a lifetime? I can confirm, that the p ...