...In the end it is the biopsychosocial effects, that kill you. And that's just the perfidious thing. That I have been considered biopsychosocial and therefore functionally ill for so many decades, was classified. Dabei litt ich an Myalgic Encephalo ...
3004_no more ME_crap here_instead of ME_lamentations&Anger visualizations
It's crazy, but having to talk about an illness, that did not exist in the world, during my most important years between 20 and 35, is also a compulsion. Because, If you look closely, they still don't exist, and nowhere except in my body. Ic ...
3004_Diary_Eros is a God in itself_Love too_confessional
... But then I found out, early, that Eros can be enriched with love.... and love enriched with eros.... And Eros was seen as a disempowered god, for me, therefore. Und Amor war für sich gesehen ein entmachteter Gott, fü ...
3004_Diary_October_ what will little Buddenbrook do?
...but will there be a place in this shrunken world for people like the little dreamer Hanno Buddenbrook? I think not. I think, the smart ones, human Darwinists, who survive, will do this as Darwinists. Künstlerische Sc ...
to Sylvia (Love Box)
Help me to believe that I am no longer a woman. She is young, simple, pretty, and she is everywhere. I can hear her laugh. Laugh! What began with a female body must end with a acurate word. For the two of us, Sylvia. Or with a hallucination? ...
Diary_3004 off topic intimate_my most beloved cat Hopfi
You are my favorite being. You are my favorite predator! We went for a walk together on the Hopfenweg, We were still small then. I'm also stupid. But I knew one thing: that I said yes to you. Das Leben mit dir war das Leichteste und Be ...
3004_Diary_telling yourself your own story
The history, that I have to tell myself is like this, that I can't invite anyone to it, to listen to me. I wrote down this story, because I had no option, to escape her through another. Man sollte frei darüber verf ...
Lacan's term: The Real
Lacan's Reale. This terrible real thing, that can catch up with you, when an excessive moment dissolves reality like the objects and colors in a painting. This painting, that I'm looking at, Year after year, this reality, gesehen von A ...
3004_Diary_September
I also say from nature: she is that, what I need. This ridiculous little one, pruned green survivals between our concrete towers- Betonstrassen- Mass keeping blocks and wire beads. But why do we say, we love nature, wir erho ...
Home_A journey with ME/CFS (A rare journey for medically forgotten young adults)
Trip with ME/CFS, Day one, zum Chuderhüsi, Approximately 45 minutes drive in total, Walk slowly for about 15 minutes, 15 min. sit on benches, fresh and halfway vital, Berge des Berner Oberlandes im Schnee Meine Hauben, day two, to the bench, that. 20 min go and 2 ...